NEARLY GIVE UP BUT I WON'T

Before start my final year project i already know

"i'm going to fall" i said

Actually i dah plan nak dapat 4.00 sem ni, so i nak fokus utk study,

tapi

my supervisor deny my request utk buat fyp time cuti sem

"kalau taknak buat time sekarang, saya taknak sign form ni"

"kalau awak taknak dengar cakap saya, awak tukarla supervisor lain"

dengan angkuhnya dier bercakap

"hey saya boleh cari orang len utk buat projek ini kalau awak taknak"
  

should i fight? no, buat apa jadi kurang ajar bodoh sombong, so i kata

"Baiklah, saya buat time study ni"

Akhirnya memang betul, saya lingkup

Projek yang dijanjikan tiba tiba jadi berganda, becoming the largest poultry project in my department (student Master/PhD pun kalah)
.
I FIGHT! saya korbankan kelas (yang saya betul2 minat), kena ponteng kerana memberi komitmen pada fyp



Because i play with NYAWA, 600 nyawa

projek fyp i kos around RM15,000

so i betul betul komited kat projek ini, i don't care about class anymore




TAPI


lama kelamaan projek ini makan diri saya

I LOST

Saya jadi terlampau penat, letih

IT IS TOO MUCH FOR ME!



Too much for only 2 people handle dengan tahap kelecehan 13treatments, 72cages kecil, and 600 ayam kena timbang ONE by ONE every week, itu tak termasuk, bancuh and agihkan manual barehand 2 TAN makanan

When it is becoming too hard, i lost my motivation

I blur, confuse, and i think, maybe give up lagi senang



Plus, SAYA MALU

SAYA MALU nak jumpa lecturer2 yang saya sayang  kerana saya langsung tak masuk kelas, even when i am free, i can't go to class because I AM TOO TIRED




Only my wife and dua kawan baik saya paham perasaan saya.

Tapi lecturer lecturer sayang saya, they care about me, they tanya my friends apa dah jadi dengan saya



Kawan kelas saya taktahu. Yeah because mereka pun TAK dapat jumpa saya.



Yang mereka tahu, meeting untuk kerja kursus kumpulan saya tak pi. Useless kan saya.



THEN


Akhirnya lecturer tak boleh buat apa, mereka just kata,

BECAUSE TOO MUCH PONTENG, U CANNOT ENTER FINAL EXAM



Takbleh masuk final exam kat UPM = fail subjek tu

So i calculate if i fail 3 subjects, so pointer i will be.... 1.8! wah i akan kena tendang keluar UPM



Tapi i betul betul tak kisah, I already fall jauh, i even don't care about my own life

Only her, always with me

Only both my friends always try to cheer me up and never bother or advice me about my fyp (because they know i hate kawan yang tegur2 ni)

I tak hantar assignment utk 2 subjek (yang i suka), tak pi second test, tak ikut pi lawatan (wuuu nak pi but can't, have works) then dateline untuk lecturer masukkan Markah Assignment pun dah lama lepas, what can i do, i just redha ditendang keluar


BUT SATU HARI


My classmate chat with me about cita cita dier nak pi keje kat Breeder Farm, gaji sana tinggi for degree student, kalau production farm cuma gaji ciput RM1800 je sebulan, kat breeder farm kalau ada degree gaji paling kurang basic RM4000++  sebulan


Then tiba tiba my lecturer bahasa Thai mesej me in fb, awak cepat hantar assignment awak, sekarang markah awak 35/60 (final 40markah) so kalau awak hantar assignment awak boleh dapat A



Then my wife said pergila jumpa lecturer, cakap baik baik

I think betul juga, I kena jumpa semua orang untuk minta maaf



So tadi i jumpa lecturer subjek Susu, lecturer tu memberi nasihat yang berguna, and

she give me second chance, ToT terharu!~ 

dier suh saya ambil second test and hantar assignment





So now I dapat semangat I balik, I WON'T GIVE UP

THANKS ALL, I AM SORRY