MY GOTHIC IDEOLOGY V

"Why should we afraid of DARK, it is where we come from.

Why should we afraid of PAST, when past already happened"

MY GOTHIC IDEOLOGY IV

"sometimes what I want is just accept me, if u can't understand me"

MY GOTHIC IDEOLOGY III

"If you need to choose which one of these two you should vanish from this world, your dream or music, what will be your choice?

if u choose to vanish Dream from this world, then you are Emo

if u choose to vanish Music from this world, then you are Gothic

if u don't want to choose anything, then you are Romantic Goth"

MISCONCEPTIONS ABOUT GOTHIC PART I (BAHASA MELAYU)

FIRST MISCONCEPTION - GOTHIC SENTIASA MOODY

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Haha mana ada~! Semua orang pernah moody, sama la dengan orang gothic. Sapa yang ta pernah sedih. Tapi kata kami sentiasa moody tu lebih la

Tapi korang kena paham. ~perkara silam~, ~dream~ dan ~kematian~ sangat berpengaruh dalam kehidupan seorang Goth tapi kami takkan share 3 perkara ni senang senang dengan orang lain. Kesimpulannya, korang akan enjoy bila lepak dgn orang Gothic.

Betul, serius ni, korang akan enjoy lepak dengan orang Gothic.

Gothic people is very very open mind. 

Bila berjumpa, kami takkan tiba tiba je citer pasal ideology kami

Kami simpan kesedihan kami di dalam, kami tamau share kesedihan kami dengan orang lain.

Sebab tu, kalau korang lepak dengan orang Gothic korang akan dapat tengok kami sentiasa senyum and tergelak. Sedih kami simpan di dalam.

Kami hanya share kesedihan, kekecewaan kami dengan orang yang kami sayang. Kami share dengan orang yang boleh paham atau terima kami.

Hoho so, boleh kata, kalau korang ada kawan Gothic, kalau dia sentiasa senyum hepi hepi sembang dengan korang, maknanya dia anggap korang kawan biasa je~ oops pendapat saya je

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SECOND MISCONCEPTION - GOTHIC ANTI SOSIAL

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Mungkin korang nampak macam kitorang ni senyap je, ta bergaul, macam sombong, jenis tak banyak cakap, no no itu semua salah~!

Ya kami mungkin selalu lepak dengan kawan kawan yang kami rapat, tapi kami ta memilih kawan. Serius cuba berbual dengan orang Gothic, serius best. Sebab kami suka sembang2~! haha. 

Ya kelemahan kami ialah bercerita, meng explain sesuatu, atau tulis artikel panjang2 (eyh~? haha)

Tapi kami tau mcm mana nak maintain perbualan jika korang kasi respons baik.

Disebabkan kelemahan kami ialah bercerita, tapi kami suka cerita, so cara kami menceritakan About Me ialah dengan cara Lagu, Pakaian, Mimik Muka, Blog, Mekap, Dance dan Puisi

Kawan, kekasih dan keluarga sangat sangat penting bagi kami. Kami perlukan kawan. Kami taknak kehilangan mereka.

Sebab tu la kami simpan kebencian di dalam hati (kalau Emo, dorang release emosi)

So kalau anda jatuh cinta dengan awek Gothic, bagi dia peluang. Percayala, awek Gothic tak sombong

(saya boleh kata, sapa sapa yang sombong dia takde ciri ciri Gothic~ pendapat saya)

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THIRD MISCONCEPTION - GOTHIC SUKA MATI

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Kematian sangat berpengaruh dalam jiwa kami tapi takdela suka mati.

Kami taknak kekasih kami tinggal sorang2. Kami taknak family sedih. Lainla kalau dah memang ketentuan Allah.

Kami mungkin ~mati~ di dalam jiwa, tapi takkan bagi orang yang kami sayang tau jiwa kami da mati.

Macam saya cakap sebelum ni. Orang Gothic simpan perasaan di dalam, ya kami ada cuba 'luahkan' perasaan kami kat orang len tapi dengan cara yang kreatif, cara kami sendiri

tapi ini cuma boleh difahami oleh orang Gothic yang lain, tapi ta kesah pun kalau bukan gothic ta paham kami, sebab kami tamau orang len sedih

Kami guna cara kreatif untuk 'share' perasaan ni sebab kami harap dengan cara ini, orang Gothic lain boleh kenal kami

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FOURTH MISCONCEPTION - GOTHIC IS EMO

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Walaupun Gothic dan Emo datang dari asal yang sama tapi Gothic berbeza dengan Emo.

Saya akan terangkan lagi nanti tapi kat sini saya nak bgtau sesuatu,

+Gothic+

Kami suka dream, kami suka berangan, bermimpi, kami simpan kesedihan-kebencian jauh di dalam hati, hanya orang yang tersayang je boleh baca kesedihan kami. Jadi kami hanya tunjuk keriangan kat orang lain.

Kami peramah, ta sombong. Kami suka hepi-hepi, suka sembang, kami suka seni, kami tertarik kat darkness, kami suka kemisteriusan

kami sensitif pada pendapat

||Emo||

Emo love music, emo melepaskan perasaan, emo pakar emosi, emo ni tentang cara nak mengaplikasi emosi pada carahidup (music, dressing)

emo sensitif pada perasaan

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MISCONCEPTIONS ABOUT GOTHIC PART I

FIRST MISCONCEPTION - GOTHIC PEOPLE ALWAYS MOODY

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Haha no we are not. ~Always~ is bit over. Everyone sometimes feeling sad. So do Goth. But u all need to understand these, ~the past~, ~the dream~ and ~death~ are strong in Gothic life but we don't simply share it with others. Ok conclusion.. Gothic people is really fun to hang out with.

Gothic people is very very open mind. We won't simply bang you with our ideology.

We keep our sad inside, we don't want to share our sadness with others.

If you hang out with gothic people you will see we always smile and laugh

We love to hide our sad. We only share our sad with the one we love. We only share our sad with the one who will understand us or accept us.

Hehe so i could say this~ if u have friend who love goth, but she or he always smile and never show his/her sadness, well means that she/he didn't accept u~ sorry my opinion only

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SECOND MISCONCEPTION - GOTHIC PEOPLE ANTI SOSIAL

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We might seems like we prefer to stay silent, arrogant or boring, or untouchable because we always with our closest friends, but trust me, chatting with gothic people is fun. We know how to maintain conversation if u give us response. We may lack of skill to tell story, or write article, but we quite good at chatting.

Because of our weakness in telling story, that is why some of us telling their story by songs, dressing, touch, face expressions, dance, or poem.

Friends, lover, and family is important to us. We need friends. We don't want to lose them. That is why we keep our hatred inside (not like Emo~ they prefer to release their emotion)

So if u falling in love with a Gothic girl, give her a chance. Trust me, gothic girl are not that arrogant (i can say that ~If u being arrogant, u are not real goth~ my opinion only)

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THIRD MISCONCEPTION - GOTHIC PEOPLE LOVE DEATH
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We bound strongly with death but we not love death. We don't want our lover to be left alone. We don't want our family is sad. We may dead inside but we won't let our loved one feels that we are dead.

Like i said before. Gothic people keep emotion inside, they do explain what they feel to others by creative ways, their own way, but it could only be understand by other gothic people, but we don't care because we don't want our beloved feeling sad.

But still we want to feel the sense of belonging. Sense of belonging in gothic people is strong, that is why we hope, by our own way of 'release' emotion, we will be found by other gothic people
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FOURTH MISCONCEPTION - GOTHIC IS EMO
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Although Gothic and Emo come from same root, but Gothic is different with Emo.

I'll explain more later, but one think should tell here,

+Gothic+
We love dream, we keep sadness-hatred inside own heart, only our beloved one could read our sadness. So, we only show happiness to other. We quite polite, we are not arrogant. We love fun, we love chatting, we love art, we attract to dark, we love the mystery
we sensitive about thought


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Emo love music, emo release emotion not keep, emo is master of emotion, emo is about to apply your emotion to your lifestyle (music, dressing)
emo sensitive about feeling


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Special for my friend ;) Dalila

Shaden - Dunia Belum Berakhir

Dunia belum berakhir

Bila kau putuskan aku

Masih banyak teman-temanku di sini

Menemaniku

Dunia belum berakhir

Bila kau putuskan aku

Wajahku juga nggak jelek-jelek amat
Ada yang mau

Ku pikir-pikir, ku pikir-pikir

Lebih baik aku menyingkir

Ku pikir-pikir, ku pikir-pikir

Lelah… ooh…

Dunia belum berakhir

Bila kau putuskan aku

Paling-paling juga kalau kamu mentok

Balik padaku

Andai kau tahu

Apa yang kurasakan

Andai kau mau, mengerti

Franz Ferdinand - Outsiders

It's been some change
But we're still outsiders
If Everybody's here
Then hell knows we ride alone...

I've seen some years
But you're still my Caesar
With everything I feel
I feel you've already been here

The only difference is all I see is now all that I've seen

it's bright on the outside
The bright love the dark side I know
It's obvious but sometimes you just have to say it so
You don't feel so weak
About being such a freak
alone

In seventeen years
Will you still be Camille
Lee Miller, Gala or whatever
You know what I mean yeah

Love'll die
Lovers fade
But you still remain there
Squeezing in your fingers
What it means for me to be yeah

The only difference is what might be is now what might have been

When you saw me sleeping
You thought I was dreaming
Of you
no I didn't tell you
That the only dream
Is Valium for me

I've seen some years
But you're still my Caesar
With everything I feel
I feel you've already been here

Love'll die
Lovers fade
But you still remain there
Squeezing in your fingers
What it means for me to be yeah

The only difference is what might be is NOW

Kiroro - Best friend (english translation)

I don't have to worry anymore, 

cause you will be by my side when I cry

You always smile at me

I am blessed because you always shine before me

Things that we have missed hastily at time, 

that's the way it is

Faces that always being looked at

Forever hugging each other

Your smile has helped me endless time, you know

Thank you thank you Best Friend

These plenty happiness that I felt at this moment

All the friends that I have here, 

you the best present

I am blessed because you always be by our side

Surely things that I have accomplished here, 

those things too give me strength (change to strength)

Faces that always being looked at

Forever hugging each other

All of your smile has helped me endless time, you know

Thank you thank you Best Friend

Things that we have missed hastily at time,

 that's the way it is

Faces that always being looked at

Forever hugging each other

Your smile has helped me endless time, you know

Thank you thank you Best Friend

Always always always my Best Friend

MISCONCEPTIONS RISE BECAUSE WE DIDN'T KNOW EACH OTHER

Masa ni i masuk kubu freemason pula dan sembang2 dengan mereka. Well I really love my black room and cat analogy dengan 'now this age has achieve its balance' theory

~Klik untuk large size~

Then the admin try to explain about ALL-SEEING EYE

Well i tried to explain dengan guna analogy

VIEW NEVER WRONG

Setahun dulu aku pernah bergaduh cakap dgn seorang Freemason. Sometimes aku pikir wow aku skang pun rasanya takboleh cakap macam ni. Human change~ klik untuk large size

So i think, last last dier terima konsep point of view

(maybe?)

i know, my english is poor

MY GOTHIC IDEOLOGY II

''My dream, it is mine, my past, it is ours"

MY GOTHIC IDEOLOGY I

"The stronger your relationship with Death, The more you will understand about God's Will"

QUESTION THAT I KNOW THE ANSWER BUT I COULDN'T EXPLAIN

A girl asked me

"kau dikurniakan banyak kelebihan dari Allah, kenapa ko masih nak jadi jahat"

Same question brother yang aku anggap sensei aku pernah tanya aku

"Izzat ko special Izzat, tapi kenapa ko ta nak berubah"

Jawapan aku tetap sama

"First, Allah sayang aku. Aku pernah jadi baik, jahat, baik balik, then now i have my own path. Aku takkan dapat answer yang aku nak kalau aku berubah. Not yet. Not now"

Aku percaya kat luar sana ada seorang lagi aku kena jumpa, yang aku bakal jumpa. I know my own future. And I love Allah so much

MY FRIEND WHO WAKES ME UP

Aku membesar dengan lagu dia, ideologi dia, prinsip hidup dia kagumkan aku, and dia la yang kenalkan aku dengan Gothic, my true soul music. So she is the girl yang paling aku respek.

KENAPA AKU RASA PAPA AKU COOL

Walaupun kami slalu gak beza pendapat, tapi aku respek dier sebab apa

Sebab prinsip dier,

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lebih rela sokong kerajaan BN sebab pemimpin Pakatan Rakyat ni cerdik sangat, habis kita ditipunya,

tapi kerajaan BN ni walaupun bodoh ta reti ambil hati rakyat and kadang2 kuarkan cadangan bodoh, and simpan orang2 dah tau duri dalam daging, 

sekurang kurangnya takde sebahaya pakatan rakyat, terlampau bijak, kita pun tak sedar kita dipergunakan.

Atleast kalau kerajaan BN ambil duit rakyat pun, kerja jalan juga, rakyat boleh gak berblogging maki2 kerajaan, kalau pakatan rakyat memerintah, dahla duit kena ambil, rakyat kena pijak

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Bagi aku....

BN DGN PAKATAN RAKYAT SAMA JE

DORANG BERPAKAT UTK LAGA LAGAKAN KORANG PUN KORANG TAK SEDAR

DORANG KAMCHENG KORANG DUK GADUH, BODOH

3 Benda Genius & 3 Benda Bodoh Kerajaan BN pernah cadangkan

PART 1: well kita kena accept nothing perfect, so dalam kerajaan (mana mana kerajaan pun) ada baik ada buruk, so ini 3 benda bodoh dan 3 benda genius kerajaan BN pernah cadangkan (3 pun cukup dah)

Yang mana buruk tu ambil la iktibar, ok kita mula dengan perkara BAIK dulu then baru BURUK

CADANGAN GENIUS I

~Pembinaan MRT di Greater KL (cool, skang da ada greater2)~

+Klik untuk baca artikel berita berkaitan MRT ni+

Sebab apa genius : We need it!

CADANGAN BODOH 1

~Nasi lemak haram dijual di sekolah~

Sebab apa bodoh : ngok apa, aku dulu selera nak makan nasi lemak je kat kantin, kalau takde nasi lemak nak makan apa siot. 

betul papa aku cakap nasi putih ada, tapi

tapi kalau nasi putih confirm lauk dier kaw kaw mahal (bg budak sekolah) cam kari daging,  ayam masak rendang ke, ikan keli sambal tumis. Makan nasi putih dgn sambal kosong muntah darah aku

lagipun like orang len kata gemok sbb McD atau makan kat umah, bukan kat sekolah

boooo~

CADANGAN GENIUS 2

~Koc wanita di Keretapi Komuter~

+Klik untuk baca artikel berita berkaitan koc wanita ni+

Sebab apa genius : Girls love it! =)

CADANGAN BODOH 2

~Akta kawal kehilangan anak anak~

+Klik ni untuk baca artikel berita berkaitan akta ni+

Sebab apa bodoh : Bila parents ilang anak sah sah dier sedih giler, ilang anak tu da kira satu hukuman paling besar bg dier. Then u mau tangkap parents ni kasi jail ka? 

How about if parents ni ada anak anak yang len, u tangkap jail depa, mcm mana nasib anak anak yg len, pastu u lagi mau pisahkan anak2 ni dengan parents depa, u lagi kejam dari penculik

CADANGAN GENIUS 3

~Terminal Bersepadu Selatan dan Hentian Puduraya~

Terminal Bersepadu Selatan - Bandar Tasik Selatan

Hentian Puduraya Baru

+Klik untuk baca artikel berita tentang TBS-BTS+

+Klik untuk baca artikel berita tentang Hentian Puduraya+

Sebab apa genius : Ramai orang puji TBS macam airport, serius cool, pastu Puduraya pun makin selesa, bersih, so tak ke bagus tu, genius move, syabas

CADANGAN BODOH 3

~Mansuh subsidi gula semata mata nak suruh rakyat kurang ambil gula~

+Link untuk artikel berita cadangan men sedap cakap ni+

Sebab apa bodoh : Masalahnya orang kat umah pakai berapa banyak la sangat gula, nak kurangkan pengambilan gula pebendanya.

Gula ni banyak pakai utk warung2, kedai makan, dorang pakai banyak sebab banyak customer, harga gula naik, dorang la yg terjejas.

Dia kata, "memandangkan gula bukanlah satu keperluan di negara ini,”"  huh?? yeke??

Mana yang buruk tu jangan ulang lagi ye, buat malu~ peace! ^^

Illuminati Card Game - Malaysian Style ~kekekeke

PART 1: Disebabkan blog ni blog kegelapan berbanding blog aku satu lagi, then entry dier kali ni agak gelap dan sinis. Well enjoy (oh ya, bila baca ni bayangkan ada lagu ala ala suspens citer The Arrival)

Jawatankuasa Siasatan Diraja

Kuasa Rakyat

Dicampak terjun bangunan

Kantoi video!

Ahli Teori Konspirasi

Well yang bakal jadi (dikatakan bakal jadi soon hohoho)

+mengikut urutan+

Facebook orang yang ada maklumat dalam yang selalu bocorkan maklumat utk warning (dia cuba selamatkan orang sebanyak boleh) klik~!

SEDAP LAYAN BLOG LELAKI =3 uupss~

blog girls i admit sweet, cantik, kreatif

blog laki ada yg serabut sgt, ada yg simple btui

kalau blog girls mesti penuh tutorial


kalau blog girls mesti penuh animation yg ceria comel even utk budak girl yg otai pun ada animation



kalau blog laki, dah la simple, kering, kaler satu jenis je



tapi satu je best dalam blog laki yg belum ada lagi dalam blog girls

DIRECT GILER, selamber je kalau dorang nak ckp lancau,

Cara mengutuk depa mang kalau terkena kita rasa mcm nak tumbuk2

kalau blog girls dorang maki pun still sweet <3 <3



Blog girls nyer makian kalau kita baca mesti respond kita "sabarla.." atau "i support u"

tapi kalau blog laki nyer makian kalau kita baca mesti respon kita "LULZ" atau "damn respek lu"




haha well ini bukan ngutuk jalan salah paham, aku suka sbnarnya mcm ni, ada market niche =3



edited: eh aku jumpa satu blog girl direct maki cam blog laki, hahaha hepi aku

WUUU RINDU ZAMAN KECIK2 DULU

MELLY GOESLOW - INGIN MENCINTAI DAN DICINTAI

Aku ingin ikuti kata jiwa hati remaja
Aku sedang rindu pada malam ku bersamamu
Kalbuku mengerang norma-norma hilang
Yang ada hanya rindu

Aku tak bisa jelaskan mengapa bisa begini
Aku slalu terdengar suara-suara yang merayu
Rangkaikan hatiku bersamamu
Di malam ini
Ku ingin

Reff:
Aku hanya ingin mencintai
Aku hanya ingin dicintai
Walaupun banyak yang menentangku
Ku hanya ingin bahagia 

Principles of Love

baru baru ni aku da lukakan hati si dia
=( 


hope si dia betul2 dapat terima aku balik, maybe aku kena ingat balik
Principles of Love yang aku tulis dulu


Honey.. I am really really sorry, Only u my love.

Principles of Love

hold my hand
and i wont let ur hand go
and u wont let mine go too
when u meet ur friend
or in front of ur family
as i wont let ur hand go
even when i facing
hardest test from God

share ur sadness
share ur happiness
share ur thought
with me
let me carry ur burden
let me feeling ur joy
because i am ready
to give my life
for you
since the first day
i falling love
to you

take care of me
care about my feeling
as long as i
care about ur life
and i really want
to take care of you
protect u
make u happy
until the end of time
so i make wish to God
please don't separate us
so i can
take care of my sweetheart
forever

let me care of ur life
let me know ur family
and ur close friends
let me worry about u
since my love is only u
and i promise
i wont over control ur life
because i want u smile
not because i ask u to smile
but because u are happy be with me
my love is only u
so i hope there is no third person
in our love story

believe me
support me
because support from u
can give me strength
to overcome any wall in life
support from u
can give me courage
to fight thousands of enemy soldiers
please believe me
because my love is only u

give me advices
please say i am wrong
if u saw i did something wrong
please say it direct
without riddle or puzzle
because i am human
who is cannot read mind
just say u dislike it
and i will remember it
all my life
and everything u did
when u say u love me
when u sing a song for me
when u give me presents
when u play with me fingers
i remember it
all my life
so please dont hurt my heart
because i can remember it
all my life

give some space
in our life
to do our own activities
give some space has deep meaning
which mean u trust me
and i trust you
which mean u still remember God
which mean u still remember your family
which mean u still remember your friends
i don't want u leave everything
just because of me
i dont want u push urself
to love me
i just want u happy become with me

i just want to be someone in ur life
someone who give deep meaning to ur life
who is you can simply ignore
i want you to love me because myself
i want you to love me becase my character
not just because i love you
not just because someone push you
not just because money or body
not just because power or famous
not just because of anything else

i just want you sincerely love me
because u want me
love me because you are proud i am ur lover

and the hardest thing in love
i want to understand u
and i want u understand me

and i know it is hard
to understand someone
that is why
i willing to learn you
everyday
let me learn you
so i can understand u better
everyday
so my love to you
getting stronger
everyday

sweetheart,
i am happy and proud
u are my lover
and i need you
sweetheart, i love you

WHY

Si dia post sesuatu yang buat aku risau tgh pagi buta tadi

and at pukul 5 pagi dier ta tido lagi, i wonder apa yg dia buat

tapi status si dia mang buat aku sedih

aku risaukan dier

"dh xepy btpe na prthankn lg..lepaskn jelah...abeh cite..."


tapi mcm biasa i know, kalau i tanya pun mesti dier kata "takde apa la"


i wonder why susah sgt nak share probs dgn hubby sendiri

why hubby must be the last man yang tahu apa apa pasal dier

i dont know, and i want to know why

Please God, protect us

LOVE HER FOREVER

Sayangku Nadirah, I love you forever, i won't give up

I have a lovely wife and i still love her

but now i am really stress because we ta dapat jumpa, banyak je halangan

i betul betul penat

sometimes i feel like our love is dying

when i call her, i feel like dia pun mcm da ta kesah pasal i

really?

don't know, bila call dier, rasa mcm dier pun tatau na sembang apa

our chemistry seem like gone



Tiba tiba satu hari i teringat na msg kawan lama i yg blaja sama dgn i

Dulu i really love this girl

When i msg girl yg i love masa sekolah dulu tiba tiba rasa hepi

but i know why we can't be together, because i am not for her

but i am really happy when i talking with her


But still, NOW, I LOVE MY WIFE

I LOVE YOU NADIRAH

walau apa pun yang terjadi